Going in the Right Direction

Turns out I'm too busy and self-important to make time to write blogs now-a-days. But, I've done a half-decent job in the last few weeks. In the month of June I have worked out 14/21 days. Working out TWICE on 5 of those days. I'm rather proud of myself. Have I lost weight? Maybe. Have I gained muscle? Definitely. Is my knee acting up again. Without a doubt. In fact, I might be over-doing it. But that is okay because now that I've made it through 3 weeks of waking up extra early to go to the gym before work, it actually is starting to feel good. I'm still slipping up on the eating right part. I had two of the free donuts at work today. That was a fail, but I'm hoping the rest of the week's workouts make up for it. In any case, I'm going in the right direction.

Slow to Start

I uploaded the MyFitnessPal to my iphone, I'm going to call it MFP for short. MFP suggests that I eat 1200 calories per day (adjusted for exercise). That is insane! Who can eat that little!?!?  But, I have to remind myself, I weigh 174 lbs, I've been wanting to lose weight for about 8 years now, and I have a wedding coming up in 10 months! So I have to make this work. (Suddenly my blog just sounds like a crazy fat girl trying to get skinny - instead of "prioritizing life" - I'd like to argue that sometimes those two things are the same thing.)

Day 1, I went over by 4 calories according to MFP. Not bad, but I was hungry all day! So Day 2 and Day 3, I went over by about 250 calories! I'm not happy because I've been having oatmeal for breakfast and salad for lunch pretty consistently. And my snacks are baby carrots, hummus, and greek yogurt. Although I'll admit that I fell off the boat a little because I got a little sick after lunch, and made up for the lost calories by scarfing down 2 slices of pizza and 3 cookies at dinner.

I think the lesson learned from these first few days is - I have to work out. I can't eat 1200 calories. No one normal can eat 1200 calories a day! Today is a soccer day - so I'm hoping my workout gives me some flexibility to eat more. I think that has to be my new motto "Work out so I can eat more". LOL.

On another note - wedding planning. If I'm prioritizing my life, why am I planning a wedding? How is spending THOUSANDS of dollars on a party a good life choice? It's not. I'm so frustrated, but after being in a 4 year engagement and 9 year relationship you can't just run off to Vegas - I should have done that years ago!!

Prioritize Life

In life I have prioritized the wrong things on several occassions. Sometimes it is hard to tell that you are prioritizing the wrong things. For instance - I have prioritized my education and carreer at the expense of my social life and my health. Other times it is more obvious, like the times I have prioritized indulging in one night of fun over my savings plan, my diet and exercise plan, and even family obligations.

So here's to my secret blog dedicated to getting my priorities in order. And I'm going to start with the one that has been most difficult for me - my health.

I love to eat and I don't particularly like running. That is a recipe for disaster. I know that if I really wanted a "secret blog" I could have joined a weightloss community online. But then no one I actually care about would ever even realize I have this goal or that I'm blogging about it. And, as I told my future sister-in-law, "shame motivates me". I'm hoping that making my progress, or lack thereof, public - REALLY public, will keep me accountable.

So here's to my first goal - lose weight, lose inches, gain strength, eat healthy, and avoid seeing another set of results indicating that I have high cholesterol (or BP, or sugar, or anything else that indicates I'm killing myself with food). I am prioritizing LIFE.